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Today's blog is going to be very personal. For me my weightloss jurney after I had kayden has been very long, stressful and a rollar coaster of emotions in itself. Before I had kayden I was petite, and I was working on my body at the time. I was very healthy and had fallen off the wagon (little did I know I was pregnant). I had a vision of what it was going to be like to get back in shape, and I was so wrong!
As soon as I got cleared from the doctor to work out, I was hitting the gym for an hour! At that time it was to much for my body. My boyfriend worked at a company where his schedule changed every 3 months. Waking up and going to the gym at 6am when I was with the baby all day and waking up at night. I was tired, grumpy and miserable. going to the gym that early was to much. I later decided to ease into it.
I would walk for at least an hour a day, which was great! I got out of the house, was able to be with my son, and my dog got exercise as well. I slowly eased into doing small workouts at home. There was a dance workout that I would do when Kayden went down for the night. I would beat myself up if Kayden didn't stay down, and freak out because I wasnt bale to workout. At the time, I was so stressed out about fitting in my clothes and bouncing back into my wardrobe that I was being way to hard on myself. My mom would critique me a lot as well. My mom would said I was fat, and I looked bad, and I need to focus more on my body, she even suggested seeing a professional. Balancing being a mom, and figuring out how to run my household was stressful enough, and then being told I didn't look good was the icing on the cake. I broke down one day and just cried,. I felt miserable about myself, I felt unattractive and even worse didn't want to go out in public because I felt like I looked disgusting.
My boyfriend really picked me up, and reminded me this is a journey, and of course your body changes after you have a baby. I have hips, boobs, and a butt now. Regardless of what happens, he finds me attractive. Even if I don't loose the weight. That's really what I needed to hear. I may not fit into a size small anymore, but I was still beautiful.
I took a few months off of working out. I really focused on being a mom, and this new life. Once I was ready I started to wake up early and went to the gym. At that time it worked out great! Kayden was sleeping through the night, my day's were more structured and it was easier. Going to the gym was still hard though. I have a gym in my building which I use, sometimes the machines were busy or the weight area was crowded, so some days I couldn't get a good workout in.
I then decided to try at home workouts. Pinterest has been a life saver. I decided to try some of the workouts and the next day I was sore. Today I still use pinterest, and while my weight is coming off slowly I am happier. I am more comfortable with my body, and have been more accepting of my curves. I workout when my son is sleeping, and I am in the comfort of my own home. I get to watch my tv shows and really sweat it out. It's not about being skinny for me anymore. It really is about being healthy. I want my son growing up and not stressing about if he is muscular, or has a 6 pack, and it really does start at home. I want him to be healthy, and make good food choices. It is about balance and not having to give up on certain foods or missing out on life events.
You need to find what works best for you, and your body, Do not stress about jumping back into working out. Listen to your body and do what is best for you, and your new life.
Today's blog is going to be very personal. For me my weightloss jurney after I had kayden has been very long, stressful and a rollar coaster of emotions in itself. Before I had kayden I was petite, and I was working on my body at the time. I was very healthy and had fallen off the wagon (little did I know I was pregnant). I had a vision of what it was going to be like to get back in shape, and I was so wrong!
As soon as I got cleared from the doctor to work out, I was hitting the gym for an hour! At that time it was to much for my body. My boyfriend worked at a company where his schedule changed every 3 months. Waking up and going to the gym at 6am when I was with the baby all day and waking up at night. I was tired, grumpy and miserable. going to the gym that early was to much. I later decided to ease into it.
I would walk for at least an hour a day, which was great! I got out of the house, was able to be with my son, and my dog got exercise as well. I slowly eased into doing small workouts at home. There was a dance workout that I would do when Kayden went down for the night. I would beat myself up if Kayden didn't stay down, and freak out because I wasnt bale to workout. At the time, I was so stressed out about fitting in my clothes and bouncing back into my wardrobe that I was being way to hard on myself. My mom would critique me a lot as well. My mom would said I was fat, and I looked bad, and I need to focus more on my body, she even suggested seeing a professional. Balancing being a mom, and figuring out how to run my household was stressful enough, and then being told I didn't look good was the icing on the cake. I broke down one day and just cried,. I felt miserable about myself, I felt unattractive and even worse didn't want to go out in public because I felt like I looked disgusting.
My boyfriend really picked me up, and reminded me this is a journey, and of course your body changes after you have a baby. I have hips, boobs, and a butt now. Regardless of what happens, he finds me attractive. Even if I don't loose the weight. That's really what I needed to hear. I may not fit into a size small anymore, but I was still beautiful.
I took a few months off of working out. I really focused on being a mom, and this new life. Once I was ready I started to wake up early and went to the gym. At that time it worked out great! Kayden was sleeping through the night, my day's were more structured and it was easier. Going to the gym was still hard though. I have a gym in my building which I use, sometimes the machines were busy or the weight area was crowded, so some days I couldn't get a good workout in.
I then decided to try at home workouts. Pinterest has been a life saver. I decided to try some of the workouts and the next day I was sore. Today I still use pinterest, and while my weight is coming off slowly I am happier. I am more comfortable with my body, and have been more accepting of my curves. I workout when my son is sleeping, and I am in the comfort of my own home. I get to watch my tv shows and really sweat it out. It's not about being skinny for me anymore. It really is about being healthy. I want my son growing up and not stressing about if he is muscular, or has a 6 pack, and it really does start at home. I want him to be healthy, and make good food choices. It is about balance and not having to give up on certain foods or missing out on life events.
You need to find what works best for you, and your body, Do not stress about jumping back into working out. Listen to your body and do what is best for you, and your new life.
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